Fish Avenue

To write this post, I'm afraid some people out there may feel offended. But me being Ashley-ness, I guess you'll know that I don't care. If you think you may get offended by this, please do not read on after this first paragraph (but seeing human nature, most of the people will read on. Hahaha). I just want to rant and to spill out what's been kept inside me for a long time. I do not understand why some people after seeing me went out with some mutual friends, first question they asked would always be, "why you never asked me out/invited me?"

I have friends and acquaintances. I always believe in asking friends to go out should work two ways. I can't always be the one asking the rest to go out. Furthermore, this friend may not be so close with the other, and the other may not be so good with this friend...... If I were to ask all of them to go out in one group, there bound to be someone feeling uncomfortable and uneasy. If so, what's the point then to go out with friends when you can't really talk comfortably and enjoy the day?

Some even asked me, "why never invite me?" It wasn't a party, wasn't a gathering or whatsoever, how could I invite? Furthermore, at times it was a mutual thing, few friends suddenly just said "hey let's meet up on xxx day". Should I be reporting to my friends every time I go out with another? That would be so tiring and exhausting.

If you feel offended reading this, you should have stopped reading by now. When you feel offended, how about me feeling offended too when my other friends asked me why I never invite them? Yes, I do feel upset and annoyed when someone asked me that. If they would like to go out with me or some other friends, why not they make the first move? I've taken so many first moves to ask my friends out, why can't they? Okay, perhaps I am being demanding. But they are equally demanding too for wanting me to invite them first. Don't you think so? That question has put a lot of invisible pressure on me. Why? 'Cause when I have a date with some friends, I dare not to blog about it in my blog, I dare not to mention about it in my Facebook, even if I mentioned, it would all be anonymous. You see, I am making my life difficult. Silly me, why would I do that? Yeah, I should do what I wish to do.

Should I be the one that making all the efforts in calling/SMS-ing every friends whenever I go out? Should I also be responsible for fixing a date that suits everybody? C'mon, I do feel tired too doing all this. We're friends, if they want to meet or see me, they should know what to do. And if I want to meet and see them, I will know what to do as well.

I love those who said to me "hey, glad that you had fun with the girls." It is so lovely to hear that from a friend. That put a big grin on my face and I know for sure I will definitely want to have a fun day with that friend soon.

I don't mean to offend anyone out there. I'm just writing my feelings here. If they like it, they like it; if they don't, I'm sorry I can't help much.

Writing this out is such a relief. Phew. Now, whenever I have a date with some friends, I would not hide it anymore. Say whatever they want, ask whatever they wish to ask, they're free to say and ask anyway. :) I'm so happy I have finally lifted another tiny stone from my heart. I feel good now. :D

Blogging is so therapeutic!!! :)