Fish Avenue

Quite a number of my friends were surprised when I bought my first DSLR camera. They didn't know that I have interest in photography and wanted to invest in a DSLR. I am lucky to be able to friend with a few great wedding photographers. One of them encouraged me to get a DSLR, while Edwin poisoned me to get a better one...... Hope one day, I could become like Jenny Sun. HA! I'm day-dreaming in the early morning!

I have always liked taking photos. When I had a point & shoot digital camera, I took good photos too. Just that when it comes to my own portraits or photos, people always mess up. :( Sometimes I would feel so unfair that I could take nice photos of them, and yet no one could take nice photos of me. Even Andrew can't take a nice close-up photo of me. Now it leaves me wonder, is it me that is so difficult to be captured by the lens?????????? I wish it wasn't!!!!!

My sisters and I were supermodels to my father when we were small. We have lots and lots of photos during our childhood. Father was very passionate about photography too when he was young. I remember he had a photo hanging in the old cabinet, a night view taken from a hilltop, mom told me that father won a 3rd prize with that photograph. When I was young, I liked to play around with father's camera. I couldn't remember what model it was, I only remember that it could hell take good photos. Haha. Too bad that father traded it off with a digital camera, all of us were equally shocked and sad. Months later, he himself regretted, 'cause the digital camera was nothing compared to his old manual camera. Haha. He missed his old camera.

I wonder how father would feel when I show him my DSLR this coming weekend. I know the very first thing he would ask me would be "how much does it cost". I have decided to lie about it. Haha. Bet he's not going to let go of it for the rest of the weekend. Can't wait to see him in action again!!

I'm the first to reach office, again. Sacrifice my sleep to follow Andrew out, just do not wish to take that bloody crowded train.

Listening to Andy Lau now, don't know what to think.....

Rejected a great job offer yesterday. Some said I'm stupid to let go such a golden opportunity. I could have a brighter future with the new job offer. Whatever it is, I have made my decision. All I can do now is look forward. With the support from Andrew and my superior, I could do better.

I got this name from Andrew. Wonder why he uses it for his Streamyx log-in ID. Found that it's cute, and it ryhmes with Fifth Avenue in NYC. Hahaha. I like fish, and I love shopping... So, I just use it!!

He saw my blog few minutes ago, yelled "You copied my ID!!!"

Hahahahaha...

It is really not easy to plan for a wedding. Be it your own or someone else's. I once thought it was an easy task, just get a date, get a gown, and wait for the day to come. I realised I was so wrong the moment I started planning my own.

I was pretty sad when I couldn't get Jenny Sun as my wedding photographer. The search for a perfect photographer went on for 2 months. I contacted more than 30 wedding photographers available in Malaysia, from super duper pricey to extremely budget.

The next big disappointment is the reception dinner. I can't have it my way, which is in a nicely decorated hotel ballroom. It is going to be in a run-down restaurant located beside the beach. Yep, the beach does give it some plus point. But the interior of the restaurant is disaster...

Anyway, I still feel lucky sometimes. My pre-wedding photoshoot went well, the photos are great. Mom is helping me a lot on small stuff. Got a budget wedding photographer and make-up artist.

Some asked, wedding is coming soon, how do I feel? Well... I was thrilled with my wedding at the very beginning, finally I'm getting married. Now as the day's getting closer, I'm not feeling excited for it anymore. I am waiting for the day to come, just get it over and done with.

By the way, my boyfriend has yet to propose to me. HA! Planning a wedding without a proposal.

Can’t believe that my birthday is coming, SOON!!!

I’ll be another year older, but wiser? I don’t know, I do know that I had been stupid and silly for the past one year.

Geez… My skin is not as perfect as before. I don’t dare to go out of the house without some face powder and concealer(someone might just think that a zombie or panda is walking on the street). My skincare regimen is something which I dare not to miss. (Lucky that I have not seen a wrinkle, yet!!)

Stamina isn’t as good as before, too. I used to shop from 11am to 9pm. Oh hell now I am so damn tired from a 4-hour shopping!

Used to sleep at 3 in the morning, wake up at 7am and still felt like a dragon. Tried that now, damn I could hardly see the words on my monitor which is just 20 inches away!

Geez, I seriously don’t feel like I’m 28 years old(2 weeks away). Looking back, gosh, my 18 year-old was 10 years ago! But I still feel like I’m 18! I still want to try the sky-diving, the bungee jump, skiing…..

Where have all my 10 years gone???

Looking at the photos, the young-looking and not-so-pretty girl, has already become a mature and quite-good-looking young lady. The hands of time had really worked its magic on me, they are just waiting for the right time to draw a few more 'strokes'. HA! As if I’m going to like that!

Valentine’s Day, was about 2 weeks ago. Andrew and I had never had the habit of celebrating Valentine’s Day. But weird enough, he had always bought me gifts on V Day. Guess that was his gesture of love.

Both of us happened to think that everyday is a V Day. Why wait for another 365 days to celebrate the love and eventually you could choose to celebrate it every single day? We do not stop loving each other everyday, so it is only right to celebrate love everyday.

The most unforgettable V Day was not spent with Andrew, it was a dinner together with both my parents few years back. I was back at home, all my sisters were out celebrating with their darlings. I was home with my mom and dad, Andrew wasn’t with me. And big daddy suggested to eat out as there were only 3 of us. So off we went to the river side for some cheap hawker food.

Dad ordered my favorite butter prawn, and mom ordered another of my favorite, fried oyster with eggs. They are all my favorite food, and yes, I can still remember it now. We were having our dinner happily and suddenly an auntie came by, who happened to be the owner of the stall. "What a good girl, having dinner with mom and dad on valentine’s day while most of the youngsters would rather go out with darling," she said.

What a cute aunty!

Anyway, it wasn’t her comment that made me happy and made the night unforgettable. It was the moment that I feel grateful that I could have dinner with my parents on V Day. Guess most of us (yeah, I said most of us, not everyone of us) would have thought of spending it with the girlfriend or boyfriend, not many would have thought of spending it with parents. Many of us would think that we have plenty of time to have dinner with parents. But I guess it is the special occasion that will make the parents happy, knowing that you are home with them, remembering them on such a special day.

It is only recently that my parents do not need my company as much as they did during V Day or any other day. They are getting more and more romantic as they age! They would go out together without telling the rest of us, dad had started buying flowers for mom, they would only have lunch or dinner when the other is around, they would always follow when the other wants to go out, they would hold each other hands when we’re not looking… It’s cute, and fun watching them. It makes me think that they are young again, like us.

Will I be as lucky as they are? Having someone to age together and still hold my hands when they have wrinkled…

I really feel envious of my parents……

Another good actor found dead in his own apartment in NYC. A shocking news.

Watched a few of his films. You must admit that he was really a talented actor. He was so charismatic that you just couldn’t take your eyes off him when he talked.

He was only 28, a year older than me. It’s so sad to see another brightest star faded away.

学友光年世界巡回演唱会，赞！ 好得没话说。再贵的票价都值回来了！

令人佩服的是他那惊人的体力和唱劲。又唱又跳，唱歌时根本没听见过喘气声。连续唱了三四首劲歌热舞，依然面不改色。已四十六岁的他还能如此努力，这点绝对叫人佩服。

有多少人知道他早期的辛酸呢？有多少人知道他生平第一场演唱会时被人抛掷臭鸡蛋呢？他的努力和辛酸，并不是人人都看见和能够理解的。

他早期的歌曲我确实听过，托堂哥的福。堂哥可说是个不折不扣的学友迷。在学友未红之前他早已收集他的唱片了。原因？因为大家都说他长得像张学友。哈哈。学友早期的歌喉，的确不怎么样。在他努力之下，后来的歌曲简直是越唱越棒。最惊人的莫过于那首 Amour 和夕阳醉了。当时大家忽然惊觉怎么一夜之间他竟能唱得那么好。

从以前老是愣愣的站着唱歌，到今天的热舞。可见只要一个人愿意努力，没有什么是不可能的。记得他曾说过，他不善跳舞。每一首歌的舞步，得重复练上一百次才能把它练熟。一百次。。。我们有多少人愿意那么做？有多少人会选择放弃？

喜欢他，不只是他的歌，还有他那永不放弃的精神。

对他，并不是迷恋，而是欣赏与敬佩。

It’s been quite some time I had not been here.

Is it possible to have everybody to love you? Why must somebody hate you while the rest just love you? And why in the world would they hate you? You scratched your head and you couldn’t find the answer? Neither could I.

Love me or hate me… That’s something I can’t control. And I can’t be greedy, I already have those that I love and they love me. That’s more important.

Well, let it be then.

A friend emailed this article to me.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

"God determines who walks into your life… It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go." ~ Francy Moraes