Fish Avenue

I've been taking Andrew for granted for quite some time. How do I know? Umm... I just know.

He has been spoiling me. Not with gifts and presents, but with love. So much of love to the extent that I take it all for granted, I think I deserve it and he should be doing that. Which is wrong, awfully wrong. But sometimes I just can't help it. I just want that little extra attention. Okay, it's not LITTLE. Yes, I'm greedy, I can never get enough of attention. I'd get annoyed if he wasn't paying attention when I was talking. I'd get pissed off when he couldn't spend more time with me. I'd get upset if he didn't want to talk to me. I'd get mad if he didn't hold my hand. Am I too demanding? Perhaps I am. 'Cause I never heard him demanding the same thing from me. LOL.

As I've said earlier, good wife or not, it isn't for me to say or judge. If Andrew feels that I am a good wife, that is more than enough. What other people say no longer matters. Imagine this, your husband telling you that you're a BAD wife but the rest of the world is saying that you're a great wife. What's the point? Well, you're married to your husband, not to the world. If he thinks you're good, you're good. You don't need a second opinion. :)

Now I am not sure if I've loved him back equally. Perhaps not enough. We love people the way we want and choose to. But we never think if that's the way he/she wants it.

So, shall I go back home today and ask Andrew "how do you want me to love you"? Hahaha. He would get the shock of his life and probably think that I'm having one of those 'moments' again. Hahahahahaha......

I was listening to this song yesterday while I was travelling in the train, I Love The Way You Love Me, Boyzone. Now I just feel like singing it out loud. :D

I'm blogging about this not for the reading of my husband, Andrew (I wonder if he does read my blog). It's not because I want to please him or make him feels better. Or maybe you'll think I'm showing off. Whatever it is, it doesn't bother me anymore. I write what I feel and think. :) As some of you may have already know, Ashley doesn't blog to please the readers.

I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when you're not here

And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bath
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane

But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul
So completely
I love the way you love me

And I like the sound of old R 'n' B
And you roll your eyes when I'm sloppily off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At sappy old movies you've seen thousands of times

And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you

Okay, time for lunch.