Fish Avenue

I was pretty upset and pissed last night. I've noticed it a while ago, didn't really get bothered by it. Well, after all, everyone could improve. But gradually, I realised it was more than just improving. We learn something, we understand it, we improve on it, we practise it. We're adults, we don't copy like what children do during their learning process. However, what I have seen was an adult practically copying like how children do.

Been telling myself to look at it positively. But the feeling was so overwhelming that I just felt helpless and disappointed. Andrew has told me to stop blogging, another friend on the other hand told me not to give up, as there's no second Ashley in the world, everyone is unique. Yes, I did say that before, everyone is unique. But seeing what has been my style and way has become others', I just couldn't help but felt disturbed inside.

Perhaps someone just couldn't understand the meaning of "unique", perhaps like what a friend mentioned, they got no substance so they copied.

After giving it some serious thought, why shall I make myself difficult, getting all upset and disturbed by someone that probably purely is admiring me? Yeah, they said I'm good and people out there is simply just admiring and copying my style. LOL! That made me feel even more vain.

Thanks to my friends, they're really angels sent from above that could really make you feel good about yourself.

I seriously love blogging. Call me vain or showing-off. Who cares? I have a bunch of friends that care, and that is more than enough. Enough to make me pick up my faith once again and move on.

P.S: There is one thing which others would not be able to copy from me. My experience, my feelings, my thoughts and my life. They're all what make this blog. And I am very proud to say, that I write in my own way and I have my way of writing. And, I AM NOT ASHAMED OF IT!

It's been 8 years, since the world witnessed the WTC Twin Towers engulfed in smoke and fire and collapsed to Ground Zero. No one would or could ever forget that.

Many innocent people and heroes died on that very day. We wept for the dead, and cursed the terrorists. The world has once again seen its darkest day.

The fight against terrorism continues...... Will there ever be a day that the world is free of terrorism?

Feel so sad by merely looking at the video seeing how the plane crashed into the tower full of people, innocent people......

昨天真是糟透了的一天。忙得都快要窒息了，却还得被人家追着屁股这个快点、那个快点。

心情十分的低落，感觉那脑袋就快要爆炸了，那颗心也不知怎么的跳得好快。

突然想起我那可爱的另一半休假，便约了他去看电影。反正又是星期三，特别票价。原本想看郭富城主演的“杀人犯”，他却不要，问我看“UP”好吗。唔。。。也好啦，心情都已经那么低落了，是应该看部开心的戏来舒解舒解一下。

电影开场没多久，就已经够赚人热泪了！好感动。我一直在死忍，别让眼泪流出眼眶。眼睛一直是湿湿的，一直在吸鼻子，喉咙咽哽。。。。。。除了感动，也有滑稽和可爱的一面。有好几次我都是扯开喉咙大笑的。老人很可爱，小男孩好惹人怜爱。

已经好久没被一部电影这么地感动过了。感人的电影的确不少，但是能让人觉得暖和且贴心的毕竟不是很多。

到目前为止，只有一部卡通电影能让我一看再看，百看不厌。那就是“怪物公司”（Monsters, Inc.）。我超爱那部卡通电影了！！！我看了近乎10次了！哈哈哈！有一次还特地要Andrew把它拷贝进PSP里头，每次搭长途巴士都会看一次。:)

现在，我最爱的电影里又添加了一部。虽然是一部卡通片，但是其中的意义却是那么的真实与无奈。

啊。。。好想像戏里面的老伯伯一样。。。升啊，升啊，飞了，抛开这一切，探险去了！

I want to write, I love writing. Over the past one year, writing/blogging has helped me looked at things at a different way and learned. I've done some soul searching after I put my feelings down in words, I would let my thoughts settled after I wrote them. This is the reason why I love blogging/writing. I finally found a channel to release my feelings.

In fact I've written something else in this paragraph. I deleted them, again. See, it once again proved that putting my thoughts into words indeed make me think better and act better.

Someone has asked me, if I were writing my personal life, why would I want to share it in my blog, share it with the world? A lot of people out there are trying very hard to have their own privacy, yet I am exposing myself and making myself vulnerable to the cruelty of this world. I have no answer for it. Is it because of that pure vanity of mine wanting to show off? Or do I simply just want to have a blog since it's another trendy thing to do? I don't know. Well, perhaps there's a little of showing off there. Can someone tell me???

Shall I continue writing/blogging? Shall I make my blog private and only share my photography works?

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My home, another 1 year and 3 months, I can then finally get the key. The key to my new hope. :) The key to open another whole new world, the door to another whole new sight.

I have never have my own place that I can call home, except the one in my hometown. That is my root that I know I'll come running to whenever it calls for me. A home here where I work and live, I have never had it before. I have a place to live now, but this is not home. This 9-by-9 foot of hole, is just a shelter. I rest, sleep and relax in here. It does offer me some warmth at times. But I've never felt the belonging here.

I am so full of hope now that I'll be getting my new home. I am so worried that something may happen and it will all disappear. Or it will come later than I expect it to be. Seeing it going up and up (yes, I can see it from where I stay now), that does give me some security.

Day by day, month by month, I am becoming more and more impatient. On the other hand, I wish the time could pass slowly so that I could have enough time to save for it. I do not wish to have a luxury home, of course everyone wants the best-furnished house if financial permits, I want a homey home. I just want some place that feels like home, a place that welcomes me home at the end of a long hard day. A place where I can dance my silly dance moves like nobody's watching. Hahaha. I'm getting all excited just by the thought of it.

I can't wait to get my hands dirty, get my brain busy and get myself tired in decorating and furnishing my home. Yes, my home. All the hard work and sweat will be worthy. To be able to build my own home, how sweet does that sound! Fabulous! :D

Few weeks ago, we've all decided to have a hens-day-out for Melissa, our lovely bride-to-be. Time flies, her wedding is coming in 3 weeks time and her wedding reception in Seremban will be in 2 weeks time. She is always such a lovely girl that gets touched easily, I still remember she said she was so touched that we were planning a hen's night for her. LOL. To us, we didn't really plan anything. Just make ourselves available on that day for her. :)

As usual, our hen's night routine has become Karaoke first, followed by lunch/tea time and shopping. Hahaha. Yeah, nothing special or naughty.

Today we went to Redbox in The Gardens in Mid Valley City. 3 hours of karaoke session with lunch and drinks, going to sing our lungs and hearts out!!!

Melissa was the last to reach as she went to the Matta fair to grab some package for her sweet honeymoon. Before she came, all 4 of us were already singing and eating. So sweet of Nicole to bake us muffins again!!! It was raspberry rum chocolate muffins! So yummy... mmmmm...... Not just the muffins, she had made some mooncake too!!! Gosh, this girl is so talented in baking and cooking! The mooncake was black sesame skin. Ooohhh...... It tastes so special and the fragrance of the black sesame... Yum yum! I had 2 pieces!!! Hahahahaha...... Guess what, I brought 2 pieces of muffins home too, my breakfast tomorrow! LOL! Thank you Nicole.

We were so crazy in singing, especially when it came to singing MJ's songs. Thought that we shall sing his songs as a tribute to him, who know we were just singing out of tune and shouting MJ's famous "oohh... oh... yeah..." This crazy Wan Yi, even sang Carpenters' songs. My goodness...... We were basically shouting towards the end of the karaoke session, I almost lost my voice.

Mel wanted to get some swim wear, too bad she couldn't find one that she likes with reasonable price. Can't believe that swim wear now is so pricey. Even I myself couldn't bear to part with my money for such small piece of cloth! I need a new swim wear too. Sigh. Went to Charles & Keith too. Gosh... I love those bags. Now I am seriously considering buying one. Hahaha.

After done with the shopping, Vivian and us went separate ways as she had a dinner date with her family. The 4 of us went to the Jonker Street cafe to have some desserts and chatting. Can't believe 4 of us are such chatterbox! Talk, talk, eat, eat, non-stop!!! LOL.

Finally, it's time to go home. Mel left with Alex, Nicole's husband came pick her up, and I stuck with Wan Yi. LOL. So nice of her to offer me a lift home, oh, should say so nice of her hubby to offer me. Hahaha. I brought them to this old mamak stall near TAR College, to have the famous Mali's Corner nasi lemak ayam goreng and kuay tiaw goreng.

Had great fun today! Thanks to all the friends that made it happened today.

Few days ago Nicole was asking me if I could join her to the Malaysian Furniture & Furnishings Fair in KL Convention Centre. Since Andrew would have to work till 9pm and I would normally go to KLCC to wait for him, no harm going with her to take a look. She also asked if I would like to go for a movie after that. Final Destination 4 that is.

I've watched all the first 3 sequels of Final Destination. The 2nd sequel is my favorite. It's interesting to see how those teenagers fought so hard to live, for a second chance. But the new FD4 is a disappointment. Read what the critics have to say about it. The trailer looks damn good! But the movie... Sigh......

In FD4, the people are basically trying too hard to break the chain to stay alive. The actors do not have any characteristics at all. I can only identify them as, the lead actor Nick that can't act, the lead actress Lori that tried too hard to look pretty, Janet the ostrich that is too over-the-top and the hunky Hunt. Things happened so fast that there isn't time to look at the characters in details before they died tragically and exaggeratedly. Unlike in FD2, all characters are being played pretty well and organised.

Also, the way those people died, give me a break. They're only disgusting, other than disgusting, I couldn't find any other word for it. Oh yes, there is another one, exaggerating. The plot for their deaths, some of them are indeed pretty lame. LOL.

Okay, at least there is one good thing. The consequences of when things go wrong at the wrong time and wrong place, that is more logical than the other 3 sequels. You don't see death god playing a big part in FD4, no creepy scenes with chilly winds. They are pretty logic that things could go awfully wrong when you least expected it and that's how accidents happen.

Anyway, just my two cents of thoughts. Enjoy the movie.

好久没写华语了。。。。。。

时间真的是不等人。一月时还在叹又得再捱多一年，现在却已经是9月了。很快的就要和2009年说再见了。哦不，应该是永别。哈哈哈哈。。。

回顾过去的9个月，学了不少东西。想做的事，有几件也做到了。想一想，日子过得还算开心的。当然不开心的事也有，部落格里也写过。但那些都不值得一提再提。伤心过，反省过，想通了，汲取教训，也不必再去耿耿于怀了。继续原地踏步的钻牛角尖，还不如往前看，向前走。

早前有个朋友说我总是记得一些不开心的事。说的正确一点，我并不是老是记得伤心事。那些不开心的事，成为了一种体验，教会我别再范同样的错。不开心的事也是一种鼓励。都是经过那些磨练，才会有今天的我。如果我不再去记得那些经历，那么我根本就不会有进步，不是吗？

快乐的日子更不用多提了，因为太多了。想写根本都写不完。哈哈哈！放在记忆里，时时提醒自己我是快乐的，那就够了。快乐的事才应该摆在心里收着，不开心的事摆在脑里纪念一下就好了。啊，我现在终于明白人家常说的“别放在心上”是怎么一回事了。好事要放在心上，不好的事就“别放在心上”。原来如此。

人生短短数十年，今日不知明日事。毕竟今日才是主角，才是最重要的。改变不了过去，那就改变今天。要改变今天，就得从改变自己开始。改变不了世界与别人，改变自己是最容易的了。麦克杰逊与王力宏都是这么唱的，不是吗？

If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make a change. - 麦克杰逊，Man In The Mirror

我可以改变世界，改变自己。- 王力宏，改变自己

Michael Jackson's burial is tomorrow. If Wan Yi didn't tell me this afternoon, I wouldn't have remembered.

For the whole month of August, NTV7 played his concerts and performances during all the Saturday nights. I only managed to watch one, the HIStory concert, which I have watched numerous times until I've lost count. Nevertheless, it is still great to watch.

From the shock of his death, to the realisation of he is truly gone, to the now he is going to be buried for good...... It has now ruled that MJ was indeed murdered. Negligence or not, MJ's physician has caused great loss not just to the family, but to the whole world.

I still couldn't believe all the accusations towards MJ on child sexual abuse. Look what he had done for the children. For someone who had done and contributed so much for the children in need and turned around and abused them?

Can time heal all wounds? Including this one that caused the whole world to grieve?

Michael Jackson was the best dancer and performer, and he will always remain as the best dancer and performer.

One video to remind ourselves, how much of effort MJ had put in to make this world a better place.

Finally.

Few months ago I've created an account in Wordpress, transferred all the blog posts here. But I didn't go on with it as I found it not as user-friendly as Blogspot.

But I guess when it's time to move, it is time to move.

Fish Avenue is now officially a Wordpress blog.

You may notice that there are some blog posts being protected by password. That is to give myself some security.

If there is any post that interests you and is protected, please feel free to drop me an email.

I would like to emphasize again like I used to, Ashley only writes about her own feelings towards certain situations. If you find it offensive and uncomfortable in reading my blog, you have the absolute right to stop reading. I am writing about my life here, not about any other people's life. Hope that the readers out there could understand.

Thank you for your understanding.